85th entries..- i swear, i wont ask my brother to buy my dinner agaiN!!! arghH!! how forgetful cna he be!! argh!!! i really hate my dinner today! =(.. But is all right! i expected it! =pp

Anyway, after much lazinees, i decided to come blogging. Ok. being so long since i last blog.. what i wan to say is, i miss my holidays and i know it is ending.. cuz tml is the freaking exams.. can i just siam the exams.? Hopfully!!!

all right. let do some sum up for my holidays. Basically, it is a scouting week for me for the first week. On the last friday before the holiday, after my school, i went over to PLTC CAMP. i can say, i had lots and lots of fun!! the next week, i went over to malaysia to have my group camp. i can only say, IT WAS DAMN FUN!!! yesterday was our weekly meeting. This meeting is a rather special meeting then the usual one- we had a scouter to ventures's breakfast. YaH!. Scouter zhao Yi and Scouter jo bought us over to greenridge mall to had our breakfast. We had some small talks with the 2 scouters. They just seem to be our friends.After breakfast, we went back school and have some chit chat sessions...

SPECIAL? yea!

ok.. today, i rotted at home. No work for me. Cuz i was suppose to study for my exams.. BUt i know i didnt do much.. cuz i cannot concentrate! too many thing for me to think, too many thing left undone.!

I talk with Jennifur not long ago. I MUST Say, I miss her!! argh!! i miss 3e4 (year 01). Argh! but i never miss zhenghua! hha. like what sabrina says," i miss the people there but not zhenghua" ya! especially with all the strict rules to follow -.-

ok.. some personal part of life... i dunnoe if i can share it here. But what i really want to say is

" sometime, something-we cannot had it back."

Two meaning.- 1st, sometime, something we cannont had it back. 2nd, some TIME, some THING we cannot had it back. yar! it ture , isnt it? i MISS the old me. Quote from jennifur " the innocent looking teckseng!" yar.. i let her compared my two photo- a difference of 4 years. Imagine, 4 years. HOW MUCH I CHANGED!? in thinkings and in actions.... i can only say, ALOT.

Sometime i look into the mirror and ask myself why. But i cannot only see, time leaving trace on me.... scar and winkles..... ( but most of the time, i am just looking at my smiles =pp)

Time past so fast... i will learn to treasure it. =) cheers.

im not being emo here. BUT, i reallly have too.. cuz too much unhappiness are happening to me.

=(

D3chengx'

HEy yO!! i am finally back to bloggingg!!! wahaooO!!..~~

200607. 84th entries.. stay tune, readers at my blog for my 100th entries =))**hint hint**

all right, all right. whatever!~

Anyway, i just came back from group camp not long ago. 1 word to describ this camp- "WAHhhOOOO!!" Cuz i enjoyed it to the core..highlight for the camp was - Hike.

Hiking to many people are just a word but to me, now, it is no longer a word but a damn tiring action.

Our hik was to mount panti, a mountain ,400 meter above sea level. It took us nearly 6 hours to reach the summit and anotehr 7 hours to reach back our campsite. I can say, during the hike, the tirness i exprienced is something i nver had before. No words can really describe the tirness.

Upon reaching the summit, the sence there is somthing, not many people can see. U can see cloud flowing towards you, crowd covering the rest of the thing under your feet- it just seem that you are standing on a cloud.

tell me, how to decribe more... cuz i can't.

all right. I would really like to thanks all the rovers and MS LINDA YEO for our help during bathing time... heee... =))

i dun really want to go too much about the camp.. but that all i wan to say... i love you, FOXSCOUT!!

i dun wan to spolit my readers mood while reading.. BUt.... as usual.. some thoughts and feeling of mine..
- today my colleagues got into a big fight with each other. Mixed feeling went by me. When i return one of my colleagues his name tag i can see the eyes, a eyes full of sorrow and remoseful...
- today, i heard some bad remarks about myself in the lounge. To them, i am just nothing but trouble maker. What else can i add in?
-today, i finally relised i miss out alot alot that my friends are going through.

what else can i say? I feel so mixed up. I feel so wierd. Why did I hurt myself so much and tot someone will be there to heal the wound.?

much to think about......

d3ch3ngx'

Well well i made myself a freak nice enviroment blogging.

I can say, i think, i rested enough.

100607. PLTC just ended and, guess wat, i done a total of 30+ hours of first aid duties. But, i learnt alot too so no regrets about it. (nah! i dun regrets doing scouting at all =p)

PLTC camp,what can i say? Fun, tired and sometime emo-ing.

i think, i dun wan to bored my non-scouts readers so shouldnt go into the progress =)

Just here to blog some of my personal feelings.

If u ask me how i feel now and my answer for u is " well or good," well, i bluffed.

I feeling something that i shouldn't feel about- the urged to get the feeling i had. I dunnoe why but i know for sure, that something to do with a friend of mine.

so many " what if.." yet all the answer seem to be the same,"T.s, u r the caused" somehow, i regreted taking a step back that time. It seem, so much that that is a wrong step i should take. Thing progress so much. so that i wanted to stop and try new ones, it is too late. Everything seem so impossible now.

life seem so much changed and i seem to be stucked at sq 1. Is this supposed to be fated or is it just my plain doings?

anyway, was having a campfire during the camp. i decided to step back for a little while and watched my firends enjoying. Laughter and joy seem to go on , non-stop. Im not jealous but i feel kinda outcast sometime.

hais. if ever i have the chance to choose my path again, i will make sure, i wont turn back again cuz it hurts to see myself standing in sq 1 when other had already moved on.....

life.. is it a caused and effect or plain fated?

d3ch3ngx'

Argh!!! klet em give an blog entries first before i go for my PLTC training camp.

NoNONO!! I not joing as a canidates, im joining as a helper =)

P.L.T.C!! argh!! when is the last time i went for pltc?.. say.. 3 years?? wahah!! and now, i back to help up!!

anyway,did i mention that i lost my first aid kit earlier?? yaya. i lost it not long ago. I was so worried.. BUt whaha!! thanks to Mr. kenny, i found it.

guess while i found it?

The people in zhenghua secondary found it. but they never return to the scouts. Instead, they gave it to the guard post and make it theirs! argh!! what the hell. They can even try to erase the word "property of elite seal" but guess wat! the word just cannot be erase. EVEN WHEN I USE TINNER, nothing drop out! wierd huh!

LOL!. anyway, nto long ago, i went out with alan to buy a backpack and alan and william have promised to pay half of it and the other halfare coustey of mummy!!! =)) all i noe is that bag is free for me =))) hahaha.. it was meant to be my birthday present lar =))

yaya! school ending soon.. it took me so long jsut to finihs this blogging. noe why? cuz i was doing my quiz dua core again =\

anyway, what i am going to do next is.. wait for school end, and then go home charge my camera battery, charge my psp battery, charge my handphone batter. pack my bag.( the part i hate most), rest, wait for hao to call me!! wahaha! =)))


okok!! till i come back from PLTC!! 3 days camp @ zhenghua secondary!!~~

mISs Me~~=))


d3ch3ngx'