222th

DEarest all,

I just got better!
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Keep yourself updated over there!

221th posting!
Is another weekend and soon school is starting again soon.

Had a super no life holiday as i need to work, work and work.
Went to charlet at downtown east and im just back! Im going to supper again b'cuz im super hungry despite the many many food in chalet!
=D

IM Going tochange my blogskin soon!
Stay Tune!~

Decheng.

220th.

I know it will show the world my weakness if i were to blog thing here today. But i have really ran out of space to go to for all this.

I realised, no matter what we do and how much we have put in, it is never enough in the eyes of your clique. What the hell wrong is with you guys!? How much have you guys actually learned since the beginning of the year!? What is with the mindset of you guys!? And what do you guys really wants!? I seriously have no fucking answer about all this!-

I may not have the skills to lead but, at least, i have the positive attitude to learn to lead. You guys just fucking show me this kind of attitude. WHAT IS FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU GUYS!?

Many said, what they do are reflections of yourself. But i swear, i had never done that before.

with disappointment and anger, i wonder how much more can i move on....

Energy Level Of The Week:


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2 Days To Friday!

THANK GOD IS FRIDAYY!!!
I saw my time sheet today and i smiled! Because pay day is coming real soon!!! =DD

hahah. LALA! i've been working hard for myself this few weeks. After the wakes of my late auntie, i contiune to complete my overtime. I was biding goodbye to randal on wed when i told him," see you on wed." To my susprise, that day was actually wed and the time just past without me knowing.

Good Good. Today was kinda tiring. Afterall is friday and is the last day of the week.
This coming sunday, i am going out with my m1 colleagues. I hope it would be fuN! =D

Kbox... hmm... Just hope that mee hun kuey and randall will wan to go. BECAUSE, i am missing those kbox time!! =DD

hahah!
Scouting Tml!=D
Let's hope i wont be late =p=p!!

Dearest readers,
I wan to tell all my friends who are taking their exams, BIG BAD Os LEVEL- GOOD LUCK TO THE JOURNEY OF FREEDOM!!
Dun give up!! gogogo!! =DDDD

dear reader. allow me to request a little moment of all of you for my late auntie who pass away peacefully yesterday.
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Thankyou.

This is real bad.- I cant sleep but i working at 9am later!.

I was ready thru sms-es from my old phone (again) and i have finally left nothing to say. All i can say is, everything is over and i must move on before i get myself into shits again.

Anyway, readers, I will be MIA for a week or so.. Please kindly contact me via sms if u need.... you see, holiday now..
Im going to work NON stop OT!

=D

Quick entry, 214th posting.


"hahahahaha! why are guys like that? you always say this. but when we ACTUALLY do it, you'll get scared and then, run away"

Indeed, i was reluctant to answer that question.
Good sentence made, i think.

Am i really ready to take anything now or am i just have nothing much to worry that makes me who i am and what i think now?

hmm...

*emotional posting. Pls ignore.
213th- I'll start this entry by quoting a sentence from shidiq.blogspot.com-
"Companionship - something that i tend to sought after every now and then."

I indeed had so much to say when we were talking about this topic yesterday. I met up with shidiq, Joseph and Fu ming for a footdrill course and we had lunch together after that.

What is love? How long can sweetness last ? Jospeh said "diq, enjoy this moment (woo-ing period) you may not have this momnet again. " I thought was so true. We have different prospect about this topic at different time of our life. (Even the name changes)

From young,we were taught to love our steady/stead with all our might. We thought that we need to keep him/her accompany every now and then. We wanted to buy everything for our love,hence, we asked alot of money from our parent just to buy something for him/her.

Then after that relationship, we tend to look for our next partner. At least someone we once know very well to keep us accompany and make us forget our the past steady. For this relationship, we wont tend to forget about present.

Then after that relationship, most of us will decide to hold back till we found our Mr/Ms right. With the past experience, this relationship we are looking for is more to campanionship. We look for people who are more mature and who understand us more. We don't give much promises to each other.
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As for me, I am currently happy in my singlehood. Life is so much easier without the need to worry so much on other partner. Sometime i will tend to look for care and concern from my buddy, gals n guy. I'm glad that most of my friend willing give me care and concern- thankyou.
But i will say, Im not a flirt. Im true to all my friends because seeing my friend smile, it makes me smile. Afterall, everyone deserve a smile!

Anyway, i read again messages from my old phone. hmm... i miss you, my friend.

It time for me to give my 212th Posting for this blog.

Cool! today is Saturday and was woken up early by my scouting brother to help them up in the footdrill. During the footdrill course, I learn quite alot. Learnt how to make the scouts learn and how to make them understand. Lots and Lots. But im Just too tired to mention.

Anyway, ihad a great laughing session with shidiq, joseph n fuming! I must say, they never failed to make me laugh(or was it i never failed to laugh).

Is time for me to go back to wk and start my overtime (if any) Im getting poor!

hmm... i wished i had more to update but i really don't! =D

readers, something to share!- Everyone deserved a smile! So give everyone a smile, afterall a smile increases the value of your face!

Wow, Blogger changed their layout =X. Just show how long have i not log in here already!.
Maths is tml and im still know nuts about everything.

Anyway, Im here just to mention something deep in me. I putting it here temporary till after my exams... - I miss you, my friend. I miss you really much. I miss your smiles and your laughter over my simple yet lame joke. You had gone far and im glad you did. I just you smile more and laugh more! take care.

ok, guys... im not going to mention who. No pt asking me, if you planning to =D

till here! =)

I just got BETTER!
After Many MANY complaints on my Email address, Please take note that i've changed my email address from d3ch3ngz@hotmail.com to Please stay Tune! There will be more changes!
=D

DechengJason.

is been long since i last have a little time for myself. - I saw liting's blog and was glad she finished the hike. Liting, come one! a few more to go.Towards PSA! =DD

OK, people.. it is true when i say, i really need a break from everything. School after work is something you dun really wan to try. My mum asked me to give up but i am not. Many people have something to achieve in life, what's mine.? To me, i just wan to be happy and be worries-free. i Want my life to be as great as it is now...

Work's rather stress this few days. Tho i may say, i forget the calls after i hang up the phone. But i believe i dun.. Not long ago, when i closed my eyes that night, i dreamt of customers shouting me and ask for manager. Thanks to mee hun kuey, she really make me smile after that scary nightmare... We may be taking high pay, working behind everything. But the stress is far more any other part time job....

As for school, tml -infact later , will be the last day of the sems. With all the common test results, Im preparing myself to fail mircoprocessor. As for the other module.. ihope everything will be fine. OH ya, mee hun kuey gave me a 3d star! is a luckily star for me to work thru the exams period! Thanks!

Scout, venture wise.... have been busy with the upcoming big event- the arrival of the taiwan scouts.!! arghh!! dun blur dun blur!! Anyway, another meeting this coming tuesday.. hmm.. how!? .... IT meeting this saturday.. what else can i do...

yea, that's life.- Anyway to those who really miss me and people whom i really kinda lost contact with, PLs pls pls allow me some time to clear all my task on hand and i will contact u guys/gals soon!=D those who i have pending promise, i still remember.. will return u after this busy period!!=] till then, pls pls pls take good care of urself, people! =D

ohya.. the yearly hungry ghost festival is here.. ppl, pls go home be4 12am! =D hmmm.. tis year, is really so different.. is it becuz of my busy timings?

lastly, TGIF!!!-thank god is fridayy=)

I was going into details of the trip with Joel. it was when i realise we are special for the unique brotherhood bonding among us.

what else can i say, u bring smiles to me.

i wan to blog blog blog!!!- i want to say, i am missing those moments already!!

for those who have not yet to know. I made a trip down to KL for a campfire invitation by friend of xiang hao! i dun wan to go into details of the trip cuz im lazy~ But i wan to said, i had fun and is really fun n laughterSSSSssss-

Hmm!- k, till here. I need to study for the labtest tml!

Ok! I am here once again for blogging. I know i've been missing in action and i am so sorry for that!

Anway, some updates of my life.
I am very busy with alot of stuff especially with work and school. It is almost everyday. I am really sick of it so sick that, i went out to have fun almost every of my off day. Things are settling down especially on money wise. life is improving. Smiles is everyday!

Scouting wise, I am starting to go back to venturing after a long long break. I am starting to act like what i should be doing and i am starting to pull myself back to normal from the last break down. I just hope you guys won't disappoint me again. Zhao yi gave me a " aids to scoutmastership" book. HmM.. im really glad to receive it.. thanks, zy. AND THIS COMING WEEKEND, Im going for msia campfire!! hahah!- just hope it turn out to be fun!

Took chenghao's car home on sat. We went for lunch at lot 1 then back home... which reminds me..My mum keep asking me to go for driving licence which she wants to fork our half of the payment... hmm.. i am still considering.. I am afarid to be poor again.

School is as usual boring.. with lesson that you don't even know what is the lecturer talking. hmm.. but still i will try to understand. My teacher told us this, when the common test results wasnt that good for our class, " disappointment don't bring you anywhere. it just take a LITTLE effort to move on"-

hmm, that all! OH ya, Happy birthday, lorraine! i know you are overwhelming with your new lappy!LaLa, admit you have a good boyfriend- My Kor! =P

later!~

YOYOYOYO!!

teckseng is a lazy bum!
so im here to help him to update his blog!
wahahaha! and! seng is a LIAR! he promise
to slp at 1.30am everydae... but he din!
anyway. he is alwaes lidat.. haha!

at last! he is goin to bcome ah fat liao!
lets wait and see!! BYE!

ENOUGH! enough of my two sentence bloggin~

Recently had been skipping schools due to whatever reasonss.. but i didnt regret going for the last friday lesson. To all my NYP friends, you guys should know i hated the last lesson of friday to core. but i really got to say, i learn alot that friday... learning is fun!

Anyway, for updates! Life's good the whole month except some minor time when i tend to listen to emo music... other than that, life is still fun..

Last week,was fu ming's birthday.. im glad that i went out with them becuz i had fun laH!!- Next destination, MSIA CAMPFIRE!! =D SOOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT =D

And, i promised myself to sleep as early as 1.30 every night! + i promise to attend school everyday except my off days in work! =p

Last but not least, to all readers. Thanks for reading!=D

Ok. done with all the emo!
just here to say, i am not as emo as my blog says.=D

after all, im a happy person!

dx'

I'm trying hard to be one. - the very fortunate smile.

for those who knows me well. Everyday is a nice day for me.

I hate to be negative. But i have to be todayy!!

I had a real bad bad day! From school to work, from work to personal! all turns out uglyyyy!!!!

I was reading my own blog entry and found out something, I need to ZOOM IN before i can read some of the text, so i decided to put it to medium mode, so everyone can see!! =D

199th posting

Like i said, i read alot of my blog entry. From a MCD crew to Jack's Place. Then to traders hotel (BAG) then to Trader Hotel,(traders Club) then lastly to M1 CSO.

Alot of thing had happened since the very first i opened this blog or even much earlier in MSN Live Blog.

Fu Ming was talking to me yesterday online. He said," i read Fox Scout forum. I found out that myself so childish to say everything in the forum, LOL.". I read my MSN live blog and i found out that what i said is so childish too.

ANYWAY...

My life is so much better as compared to the past.

So....

no worries about me, ok?

I always like the tune of this song. REaders, enjoy..

ohyea, forget this..!!

i am sick n tired of my way of living!! arghH!

Hi Everyone, Im back t my own blog.

Actually, i have alot of thing to share with everyone. I have thing kept inside me and damn, it is really deep in me. I wish to tell someone but i've yet to find anyone to talk to. Damn, thing made worst with my cousin going into army. The only person who i can talk heart to heart !!

Was looking at blog of others (after many rounds in HL2). Something bad happened to my friend recently. I dunnoe, i think it just sucks to get in love.

hmm..

Different stages of life. - Have you ever find it hard to adapt?

I have so much to say, especially after the group camp.

but everything can be sum up with one sentence -
I'm seriously need some appreciations to move on.

Buddy! Hope you like the cake! -.-
(Although you only ate 1 piece, -.-)







Will pass you your present next week! :D Love ya!
Happy sweet 19th birthday! (:

With Love,

Nys.

HEY EVERYONE!

i will update on tues!

before that, just quick thanks to everyone!!

191 entry. IF U HAVENT REALISE, let me tell u this!! MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING REAL SOON AND GUESS WHAT? THIS YEAR IS REALLY A NICE YEAR FOR ME!!

1st my birthday falls on friday! which means it is weekend!
2nd, monday, which is 3 days after my birthday is Pholiday. which means, more time to rest!
3rd, 4th day of my birthday which is tuesday , i have no school becuz steven cancelled his lesson!
4th. my lunar birthday falls on the same day too!

cool righhtt!! im sure to be damn happy this birthday! im not talking about present, i just hope i can have alot of friends to greet me on that day!! =DDD

im sorry readers, i always get excited for my upcoming birthday!!
counting down....

4 more days...

SOMETHING TO SHARE!

> > Subject: Attitude
> >> >> >> >READ THIS
> >> > LET IT REALLY SINK IN - THEN CHOOSE .
> >> >> >> >> >> > John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"
> >> > He was a natural motivator.
> >> > If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation.
> >> > Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, "I don't get it!
> >> > You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"
> >> > H! e replie d, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood.> >> > I choose to be in a good mood."
> >> > Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or...I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.
> >> > Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life.
> >> > "Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested.
> >> > "Yes, it is," he said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood.
> >> > You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life."
> >> > I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it.
> >> > Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower.
> >> > After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back.
> >> > I saw him about six months after the accident.
> >> > When I asked him how he was, he replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins...Wanna see my scars?"
> >> > I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.
> >> > "The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," he replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or...I could choose to die. I chose to live."
> >> > "Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked.
> >> > He continued, "..the paramedics were great.
> >> > They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action."
> >> > "What did you do?" I asked.
> >> > "Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said John. "She asked if I was allergic to anything. 'Yes, I replied.' The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity'."
> >> > Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to li! ve. Oper ate on me as if I am alive, not dead."
> >> > He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude... I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully.
> >> > Attitude, after all, is everything .
> >> > Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34.
> >> > After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.

i was borrowing thru some of my past entriess... 188th entry.. and i saw alot alot of my unhappiness entry i used to have.. Things are so different. Now life is so much easier. not to mention about my new job but thing just seem to be changing..

Life is improving. No more tears, at least. I flip thru some tarrot cards that my colleauge bought that time, she says, "your life- you have a very simple life now and is good to see that you are easily contented in life... etc.."

yes, is kinda true for many thing she said. But all i know is, at least i dun feel any sadness currently. I am proud to be in my life now and i wan to make it even better in terms of my living standard. That's my next step! twd a better life=D

YEA! MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING THIS COMING MAY 16. GREETING AND PRESENT, ANYONE?-

d3ch3ngz

is a tiring day yesterday. i don't know why- monday bluess maybe~
187th posting. Blog gonna TO HAVE IT'S OWN 200TH POSTING SOON~

ok.. i must say, is kinda a bad day yesterday especially with the call from this china FRO. don't wan to go in deep but she makes me level up! =D

ok. like is busy this aday but why am i so free today? because i never go to school!!=D hahah! i cannot wake up for school and i couldnt make it for the autocad lesson! Ok. I know i shouldn't be doing it but hmm, i promise i will not switch on slient mode for my phone tonight so i can go to school tml =d

Scouts wise, we are all preparing for group camp and all the camp development stuff. Saturday are tiring luh but looking at all my ventures trying hard to go for this camp, it really motivate me to move on.

School & work & school & work is all my life now.. i cant wait for the arrival of my next pay day so i can go for a movie or something!! arghh! i need some relaxationnnnn!!!!

hmm, that's all updates i can give, hmm.. i wan to change my blog skin soon=D custom make or not, i dunnoe.. hmm just stay tune here=D

oh ya! i was talking with chee xin that day and we chat about this topic ' if you were left with 24 hours of ur life what will you do?' from there we come out with alot of ideas on how to make our friends happy and stuff. then i came out with a idea, which i think was cheap and really meaningful. i told her, i would buy a lot of majong paper and start drawing a smile on every piece of it. Why!? so my friends will smile even when we are not around them and when they need a smile so much.. hmm idea hur=D

what about you? if you were to left with 24 hours, what will you do?

d3ch3ngx

186th entry. (Posted by Nys!)

This is a very very old photo of us! I think it was last year. You know why. We haven't been taking photos for a longggggggggggg time. I'm like so not nice. Haha. Yupeeee. Buddy is loved! (: You know he said that my food looks nice eh, & even taste nice. I'm like so touched. Becos' I think that it's not nice -.- thankyou eh Buddy! Hehe. Smile everyday like me! We're both happy person okay! (: Say no to EMO okay! Anything i'll be right here for you! (:

Here you go to work.. Haha. Jiayou & work harddddddddddddd ah!

Well, wanna say to you again.. "Jason is a nice name!" Hehe!

With Love, Nys.

185th entryyy!!!
i wan to say " TGIF!!!!"
To those who dunnoe what it means, it means " thank god, IS FRIDAY!!"

which is to say, tml is saturday and it means REST DAY for both school and work and yes(!!) is my scouting dayyy!!! IT IS ALWAYS THE MOTIVATION FOR MY WEEK TO ATTENDING SCOUTING AT SATURDAYSSSS!!=d

HMM.. i don't if i should say this," I MISS YOU!!!! =( " i don't who should this goes to but i know i'm missing someone... hmm it is rather random but yea, is something that hides inside me for the past one week.

Work and schooling really keeps my life feels more 'full'!!
hmm.. i think i ran out of ideasss to bloggg!!! but erhh!! that alL!!!=D

d3ch3ngz

I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!
I CANT SLEEP!

hey all!

since I am a little too early for bed time, let's blog blog blog=D

overall for the past weeksss i've been busyy.. busy with schoolss work n everything in my life.. but but but but!!! i am bacK!! i will be blogging more!! hahah!!=D

stay tune!

182th entry.!



BEFORE ANYONE REPORT TO THE POLICE FOR MISSING CASE! I WAN TO TELL EVERYONE!!! IM STILL HERE!!!=D I'M JUST A LITTLE BUSY FOR THIS WEEK DUE TO SCHOOL START AND WORK.!! PLEASE BEAR WITH ME!! WILL BE BACK REAL SOON!!!=DD



D3CH3NGZ

Lets101 Quizzes - Fun Quiz

hahahah!!!

180th post. I woke up half way from my sleep and found out that i can't get back to the dreamland of mine. So i decided to give a blog entry to this half dead blog of mine!

School re-opening in around 7 hours time! And yes, i have not been going to school for the past 2 months or so... i think i had enough rest during this two weeks. At least, i don't look like a dead man walking ;) i promise myself to attend school regularly! I promise myself to listen in class. I promised myself to not sleep in class! I promise myself to score well this sems! PLS GOD, help me in all the promises! ;)

New start! i wan new start!!=DD

Anyway, i went out today to have dinner with one of my friend. Yea, this long lost friend again=) glad to be out with her ! -

till here, readers~ Take care and for those who are going to school tmr, please have lots of fun in school!=D

d3ch3ngz!

179th entry.
Something hidden in me. something disturbing in me.But life still goes on.

Anyway, 4 more days to school reopen! and 5 more days to fishtank training. Which is to say, offical CSO!! i am hapy with my new job adn i hope iwill be like this as days pass!=

my birthday's coming. anyone still remember?

16.05 i hope, i will smile that day!!

d3ch3ngz!

178th post.Was asked by cheexin to do this~

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
- not sure, but not any time before i have a proper career.

2. What I want the most now?
- hmm, maybe to get out of my poly fast?

3. What am I doing?
- this survey?haha-

4. Do you think you have enough confident?
- in? i think i have in everything except, EXAMS and RELATIONSHIP!

5. If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
-hmm... i never had any nice dream this few days.. maybe, something sweet to come true?

6.what are you afraid to lose now?
- hmm... my family, my friends? everything!

7. Do you believe in eternity love?
- maybe? but it haven happen to me yet.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- yes. but it will take me hell lots of time to do that.

9. How would you spend the 200 bucks if you have to?
- HAVE TO? can i save it? or maybe on somthing i like?

10. What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
- hmm... just be herself?

11. Which type of person do you hate most?
-those who hate me.

12. Do you cherish every single of your friendship?-
-of cuz!.

13. Do you believe in God?
- OF CUZ!.

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- PLESAE REFER TO QUESTION 6

15. Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
- not a need. but life is will be sweeter with it.

16. What do you want your friend to be like?
- i wan my friend to be happy people...

17. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends eyes?
- funny guy? hahah i dunnoe... ask my friend!

18. If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
- hmm.. maybe the funny part? hahah. but i'm good alre. SO NO NEED TO CHANGE!

19. If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
- JOEL TAN, CHENGHAO, JAWS, FU MING AND GANG AND MANY PEOPLE. SO MANY THAT I DUNNOE! HAHAHA. CRAP!

20. If today is the last day you will be living and you have a choice and that is to bid goodbye to someone, who would that someone be?
- THE ONE BESIDE ME AT THAT TIME?HAHAH!!

TILL HERE! GOING TO M1 SOON! BYEBYE!!

D3CH3NGZ!

177th posting! i'm sorry for the emotional posting last entry!

yea! i'm back to the happy me! i wanna blog blog blogg about kite flying!=D

I wanna say a big thank you to fu ming for organising this kite flying thing for all the scouts for their investiture. Being a venture Ops rover, i have nothing to do but to watch and play! =D SO!! when the scouts fall in to sew their emblem, joanne, me and siew decided to modify the kite done up by one of the patrol!.

Just as we wanted to start with our modification, this uncle came to us and suggest us what to do!!! hahah!! his method really works!

The kite was in a bad shape alr.. so, it didn't fly high but it was already very good job for me to bring the kite all the way up above the treess ,at least=D

i had lots and lots fun, of course=D yesterday, i confirm, it is always scouting that makes me happy and laugh non-stop even when i think back!..hahah!

Ok, next event, group camp. I was posted or infact i requested to the operation side. haha because i only got two choice, f&B and Operation! hhaha! i knoe Operation gonna be stress but f&b is just not my type. hahah! i am so lookin forward=DD

ok till here! goona go out with my parents alre!..

d3ch3ngz!=D

176th entry. i skipped my 175th cuz that was placed as draft. Reason, i couldn't get myself to carry on in that entry as tears flow down and got myself emotional when i talk about everything that happen for the past one month especially the last camp i went to.

I have lots to say but no one i wan to go to. I can laugh, smile and even make a fool out of myself to make other laugh but deep inside me, i know, something is still not right. Something is still short of. i must admit, i am envy with something or infact jealous about something. But everynight, i can also make myself sleep with white lies to make myself feel good.

God, would u make my life more easy?

174th entry. No mood to blog. but still something caught me...
check this out:

FOLLOW THESE RULES:
1. You can only say Yes or No!
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explainANYTHING unless someone messages youand asks!
3. DO NOT SAY ANYTHING BESIDES YES ORNO!!!

Over 18?` yes
Kissed someone on your top friends?` yes
Ever told a lie?` Yes
Been arrested?` No
Kissed a picture?` Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school?` Yes
Held an actual snake?` NO
Totaled your car/motorbike in anaccident?` No
Been fired from a job?` No
Sang karaoke?` Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?` Yes
Laughed until something you weredrinking came out your nose?` Yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue?` No
Kissed in the rain?` yes
Sang in the shower?` Yes
Sat on a roof top?` yes
Thought about your past with regret?` Yes
Been pushed into a pool with all yourclothes on?` no
Broken a bone?` No
Shaved your head?` NO
Slept naked?` yes
Played a prank on someone?` Yes
Stayed up longer than 24 hoursstraight?` Yes
Had a gym membership?` No
Felt like killing someone?` no
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry?` yes
Been in a band?` No
Shot a gun?` Yes
Liked someone with nobody else knowingabout it?` Yes
Loved someone you shouldn't?` yes

173th entry-Guess what! I wake up and on my computer just TO BLOG!;)

It have been ages since i last blog, at least to me, cuz i know i am so lazy to blog. I have alot of thingS to mention and i believe my last post talks a little bit already.

It is half-way through my poly holidays. I must admit, i am kinda scare for the results releasing this coming wed. I just hope everything will turn out fine and i wont fail ANY (X-Finger) module. POly holiday, to those who really know me well, they should know- holiday means working days for me. This time, unlike the past holiday, i am working two jobs. 1 at traders hotel (club floor), the other at m1( customer service officers).

Let's divert the attention to my working life. i will be working in traders club for another 2 weeks and then i'm goona say bye bye to traders hotel, singapore. Life in traders hotel- we can call it CRAZY. first, i get to know arul and all the baggage people. I can say, they really teach me alot of stuff and how the real world is all about. These people really take care of me and really treated me with respect. For at least, i know, they wont talk bad stuff behind my back. i worked in baggage for 1 month and was posted to Traders Club. Changed to a new uniform (fo-35) with long seeves n smart dressing. I was first greeted with fomarsita's " welcome to the lounge!" and i know, from then, i am part of the Traders Club Team. Soon we started to crap and every work hours are filled with joy, laughter and angerrr (to guest only) Harlim was then bought in to lounge by marsita. First impression of harlim - funny joker! and soon, he became the brother of mine and we started to share stuffs. we started to bond during the days when i was put in charge! Traders Club was a crazy place to stay with marsita and gang~ i will also not forget my birhtday where this TC stuff celebrate for me.!

Soon after all the fun, thing changed! EVERYTHING.... i don't wish to mention anything but i just wan to say, i soon lost my committement in that lounge. Then all the old batch starts to leave and that when i started to plann for my future!-

ok long enough for TC. and M1, i just started. So far all the staff are good beacuse we are all trainee staff. More intresting stuff to come about, i hope;)

that's my job part. And for scouts part, this friday, we are going to camp AGAIN!! survival camp. It is a training camp for all the ventuers. Im keep telling myself this cuz i know, is time for me to get a little serious with the new ventures!-

that all=D

readers! stay tune @ my blogg=DD MUACSK!

anyway! thanks nyssa for the personal msg in her blog! IT is sweet=D

ONE HUNDRED N SEVENTY-TWO ENTRIES!

I was bathing till half when i suddenly got the urge to blog! (Don't worry, i'm not naked now and i had finished bathing!)

yea! as i was saying, i got the urge to blog because i have got alot to update my readers about my life andstuff! the most recent big event in my life was job week and now that it is over, i have so much of tots and feel, as a head IT and as a OPS Rover of ESV.

Firstly, i think i learn alot during this jobweek and i know quite alot of stuff and why and how things are done!- Now that i know so much, i hope that i can bring a better system next year and ease liting job as much as possible!.-

Next, as a OPS Rover of ESV, i want to say, i really want to thanks the ventures for the jokes and laughter they brought me. it is something money cannot buy. But i know, i must be a evil OPS Rover real soon. ESP when survival camp is coming.!-

And i 've got a new job!- M1, customer service officers! hahah! i hope i wil love the job! today's first day of training!

k till here! =D

171th post, (:
Well.. It's obvious I'm not the blog owner.
He is so busy that he doesn't wanna talk to me online, ):
He's busy with Scouts thing, & JobWeek is up next week.
He kinda busy. I understand lah Buddy! :D
Hahaha. It's now so late & he's still busy.
How sad right? Cos' he'd devoted to Scouts! (:
He's scarcrifing(?) his sleeping time leh! How sweet!
Lol. Okay. It's kinda late.
Tomorrow is Zhenghua's Annual Sports Day. Gotta go off to my dreamland..
Good night Readers! Come tag often uh! :D
I'll update whenever I'm free. (:
Guess who am I? Easy.. His friend's list! E Biggest is me. :D
Buddy.. Take care hor~ Don't tired yourself! I love ya! Miss ya too!

Xoxo.

170th pOst- Was doing some research with regards to my poly stuff but end up viewing friendster and stuff. Something caught my attention and i decided to further view. I saw this group " i hate my DM" n the group owner was someone from ym secondary school, of course.

I got a stand i have to make. I think, some of the comment left in the group are really to a extend where there involve in 'personal attack' and such stuff can actually bring one to court and stuffs. But have those who really left nasty comment tot about it?-Whatever it is, i still think, this people really need to think before they act especially when they enter the real world to work.
Okie. i got to go back to my studies before i got myself kicked out of POLY!. haha! stay cool!..


OH yar, BTW, i will be in camp from 8th to 11th of march!=D

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yea! This is the 167th!
Dear Readers, I am back soundly from Ubin Trip (Night Hike + exploration). Before the hike, i had a bad dream and it kinda scares me because i never had bad dream before any of my hike/camp. But everything is all right now, cuz im back to sg already.

Anyway, This camp was really a tiring one for the ventures, i think. This time, i am as a operational rover but more to toward a observer because i don't really know much thing plus, i too not serious to the ventures. To me, i think i can only give them encouragment and motivations. But i thought back, if they were in aspire camp, who will be there to do what i have done to them?- I seriously need to do something to stricten myself from playing too much with the ventures/ act as a senior exco chairperson, as defined by Zhaoyi. Being a observer, i see alot of thing. I see some of my venture almost gave up for the camp.. i heard words that are so discouraging and i saw actions that really boost the morale of some! From good to worst, worst to good. I see it all. Much to say and think about..But anyway, Much things to learn from all my seniors, chung guang, joanne and zhaoyi!-

Now that i am back to SG, know what?- i am goin gto investiture hike this coming saturday with the venturess=D jobweek are also coming and all the system must be ready by this coming friday!! and then will be survival camp by the venturesss..and yea, i just love venturing and scouting!!

Btw, T.c called me. wanted to ask me to work full shift tml. i wanted to help but was pulled back by alot of thoughts and of course by the exam on tues, digital electronic- i just hope i do really well. Im going to study with my a2 gals tml hopfully it will be a fruitful one!=D

do i really still belong to you guys?- how many of you will actually miss me like how i miss my old batch? ho many of you are happy for my leaving few weeks after? how many actually cares about me? and how many of you are true in teaching and coaching me.? and lastly, how many actually respect and love me? you guys
set me thinking..=(

ok. posting till here. Wanted to thanks NYSSA for her care and concern throughout the camp i had yesterday.. and for all her sweet sms-es =D thanks nyssa buddyy=DD

i hold on to that hand i once let go. The feeling of it with no words to describe. i wanted to ask you, how have you been? how was ur life without me? im guilty with the past. i could have gave u more but i choose not to.. you should have deserved more but u didnt't. i should have told u more, but i zipped. if ever i got the chance to tell you what my heart have always wanted to tell you, i want to tell you,
" i am sorry for everything will you forgive me?- "

Till here=D good night readers! =D!

166th post. I decided to take this little time to blog before i start to pack my bags for tml camp.
Something to share with my readers:

I think everyone know about this guy, edison chen and all the pictures leak to the net. ( Ok wait, add joy make me so high! with her lamesstttt) Ok. Was toking about this guy.. I seriously and personally thinks that he is damn brave to face the music.. i mean, yes, he need to do that but i think it is really not easy for him to come out and admit to his doing. Anyway, add joy make me lost all the tots i wan to blog! LOL!

nvm! tilll here, yea, HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UYOU!!! TOADD JOY!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AND MAY ALL YOUR WISHES ( she said she wan one thing- EVERYTHING) come true! and may your smiles never leaves ur cheek=D stay sweet n funnyy!=D=D

165th entry!

okie. im suspose to be studying but i think i have something to say!- I MISS GOING TO K-BOX LUH!! It have been ages since i last went there!!!! WHO, just who can treat me there for one time!!!??-

Oki. This saturday while the others OPS rovers are booking into fajar secondary for the OCamp2008, I am booking into Pubin camp for some exploration with my venturesss. I think it will be fun with all the night hikes and all the ideas of having a MOVING camp and sure enough, i am looking so forward to this camp and hopefully my ventures are too..=D BUT, i know i still need to worried about all my exams first before i can go and concentrate on this event!!!!OH yar, i had found someone to help up in editing the system. Hopfully, he does a good job. Im sure, he will!!!

ANYWAY, some big big set-back in my life.. and i know i dun wan to share to ALL my readers.. i have already told one/ two of my very good friend luh. i dunnoe if it is a good idea anyway.. but i hope whatever choice taken, thing will turn out pretty=DD JIAYOU WOR!

that all=D hehe! booking into camp on 23rd to 24th, anything just call me via my hp!=D

cheers,decheng-

165th Entryy! Gong xi gong xi gong xi!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HEHE!! Boys and gals,i had uploaded chinese new year songs to my blog in celebration of the chinese yearly events- lunar chinese new year! I herby wishes all a happy new year! may all your dreams come true!!



okie. since i have nothing better to do =p let's give an update to all readers of ad3ch3ngx.blogspot.com! i've being busy for the past few days with new year clothes shopping, new year decoration,steamboat foods, exchanging money and many more... This year, i 'took part' in the spring cleaning and my brother and i start cleaning the windows.. while cleaning, i was laughing non-stop because of my stupid brother and some bomb bag thingy.. long storrryy.. WWOOO-This year new year was so much of like temple visitiing... i managed to catch the CJ7. It was funnyy and was kinda sad in the center part too- Anyway, like i say i visited quite alot of temple this year.. yar, i think i spend quite alot there too.LOL!.-



anyway, yesterday, i went to ms linda house and talk quite alot of our past history.. from the bad boys to a man.. time really flies and we are like all doing our own thing alr..haha.. ( this entry stop here and was continued only after 2 days =P)

Yea, back! i wan to jot down this!! =D i went to lynn house that day with niting and i have so much to catch up from them ARGH!! gulityy! IM GULITY FOR NOT ATTENDING NITING'S PARTYY!!=DD yea, she told me quite alot of her storiess lar. plus plus plus all the craps as usual! with lynn n niting around why would there be no jokes!=D

hahah!! boys n gals! would like to introduce a gal to all.- DORRIES! haha! i met this gal actually some time back in NYP. Of cuz, she was the first who greeted me with a smiles!.. Then time to time when we met each other in NYP we will start to say hi to each other!!=D OK. no more suspend. actually dorries was my primary school friend. If im not wrong we were classmates when we were pri3. AND GUESS WHAT, we are even from the same kindergarden!! whOO! 14 years and we met each other again in NYP!=D it really nice to see her actually=D at least she adds on the number of friends i have in NYP! ahhah! actually there's is chua si hui as well... we met, we chat.. all in nyp.. but i've yet to grab hold of her Email address. maybe one day=D

ahhah! Is a great feeling to get back to your primary school friends again. I feel that especially strong when lynn ang mentioned' takara tan' wahhaha! =D

btw!! happy new year guys!~=DD

Okie. Something new!!=D
Just here to said. yea.. venturing meeting is coming soon in around 24 hours time. and i am so looking for it lar!=DD wahah! this saturday. the senior will have a step down parade!! wwhahH! hope everything goes fine!=!!
hehehe!!

d3ch3ngz

162th entry.. Yea, im having ym dineer while typing this. haha!.

Dear readers, i think im suffering from insomnia. I couldn't get to sleep almost every night. Everynight, i will tell myself, teck seng, u need to work hard for your parents... teck seng... ur parents are waiting for you to work hard. Yea i know.. But.. what's more can i do. I just hope i can do just one thing in my life. Either work or school. But i know it is impossible. i need both the education and the money. ARGH!.-

ya, i was suffering from insomnia that i did something, silly, i think.. dun feel like mentioning it. But yea, i wont do it agian, i guess. Dun worry, i didnt hurt myself =D something that just make me sleep peacefully.=D

anyway... I really hope, someone will accompany me through this long and lonely journey...

ANYWAY!! TODAY!! 30TH IS NYP 美女's birthday!
HAPPY BDAE TO YOU, HAPPY BDAE TO YOU. HAPPY BDAE TO YOUUUUU! HAPPY BDAE TO YOU!!!=D ya. it really nice to have this gal as my classmates. becuz she is someone who always encourage me to go on. I may not be very close to her.. but.. she's always the one that make me smile in nyp.=D i won't forget the encouragement she gave me during my AEP. yea, even though, huiping helped me in the end. she never gave up on me !!! thanks christine=D and also all the emails via our nyp mail =DDD happy birthday to you!! 19th year old kid =D i will soon be ur age =DD heheh!!

d3ch3ngz!

161th post. Ok. Im suppose to study my 1222 (creativity n innovation). But i think i got sick and tired with it so i decided to blog instead!.
Omg. im having flu=( and the feeling of it was rather not nice lar. i kept closing the lid of my lappy just to get tissue paper behind my lappy.
Ok. I think i so tired about the up coming exams and yea, cny. This year. because of my late uncle now my mum side cannot give angbao! how!? =( goona be damn poor this coming cny, i think... But anyway, i still looking forward to it because i hope the coming new year will be a better year for me =)) smile!!

Till here!
d3ch3ngz

160th Entries.
Music, when you are gone by Avril.L

HA.I thought it would be nice to share what am i listening to when i make this blog. This song caught my attention when one of my friend share the lyrics with me. Anyway, i read some of my past entries and are really gald that i posted an entry back then.
Because, i know, i am missing the old club lounge. The club lounge with marsita still around. The club that no one can replaced. I was talking to hafizah(one of my fulltimer @ tc) few days back and she talk something about anti social.I tot back, am i? - She was right, i don't have friends in poly (close friends, i mean) i don't have in club. Am i consider anti social or am i just too choosy on choice of friends.?-
I have a very close friend who i share many thing with him. Jokes, Laughter never stop when i met him. But somtime, i get rather pissed off with this friend of mine. Sometime, he/she always do things without the thought of how i feel. Sometime, i got rather piss off when he/she start rejecting my invitation, be it to town, to school...etc. Sometime when i tot back- why can i always wait for him/her, accompany him/her whenever he needs but whenever i request, thing is always differernt? - But of course, he/she never failed to make me laugh.

Scouts. Talking about that, i really miss my scouts buddy. fu ming, bingquan, nigel, chenghao..etc is it being sooo long since i last see them. Now that they are no longer in ventures and are busy with their own ops school. will we still meet up and stufff? when will be the next time i get jokes again?-

till here=D got to help joel with his C#~ oh yea!.anyway, i miss u- seriously. =D

LET blog something..

I seriously think a relationship couldnt go anywhere without trust a big heart to forgive and forgive. What is most important is, be confident of urself and ur partner. Believe that what he/she done for you and for others have different meaning. Even when both actions is the same, it just feel different. e.g care for a friend and care for a partner. it is still care. But it feel really different.
A relationship cannot go far with jealousy and anger with ur partner. So, readers, should you already got urself involve with a relationship or wanting to get one- think! - are u ready to be open that ur partner is a good guy/gal not only to you but to all ur friends and her friends! if no, consider again when u say u have confident in ur r'ship~.

d3ch3ngz

ok.158th Posting of @d3ch3ngx. One more week, this blog will be puting up it's new year decorations! So, Stay Tune!

Ok. Daily updates- I was late for school, yet again.This morning, i was really KNOCKED out on my bed. I wake up to pick up morning calls and replied sms and GO BACK TO SLEEP! OMG!-
But anyway, i reach school at about 2pm and i was asked to take LABTEST of eg1222. OMG! I couldnt get anything out except the G.u.l. WTH!
Now that i was release early. library was another place for me to rot~

Ok. Going to update foxscout.org. that all!=D

d3ch3ngz

OK.!! THIS ENTRY IS SPECIALLY FOR THIS MOST SILLY AND CUTEST FRIEND I EVER HAD!=DD!

THIS MORNING WHEN I FINISHED BLOGGING ABOUT THE PREVIOUS ENTRY, i believe she is the first to view that entry. She tageed me and i started toking on msn. At first, she wanted me to use webcam but i think nyp blocked the webcam funtions. not sure.. then she say ' never mind teck seng! accept this picture and see and SMILE!!! ok! readers, this is what she sent me :

Ok! i had her granted me the permission to post this online!=D

she said:
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
my cute image gone liao
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
*shake head*
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
haha
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
but still
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
can make seng happy
JENN. x♥x♥ TCH says:
jenn don't mind no image

message to eejieying!

JIE LI MAO! i really donnoe what to tell you but i am seriously glad and very touched for this photo from you! Jie li mao, i will never forget such a friend like you. Doing everything just to make the one beside you stay happy. You are really a nice friend! a best friend. I never regret knowing you thou u sometime like to day dream alot.! Trust me, those time when you tell me about ur fairly tale, i still remember till today! and those days when we talk everything under the sun,moon...etc.. i'll never forget!!!=DD jie limao! im really happy and happy and arghH!! happy to know you!!!!

we are forever the yong qi!!!!-=DD

ok. this is not getting anywhere... I know it seem pathetic for me to blog all this thing out but i really got no where and no one to go to alr..
155th entry- One of my many troubles..

Today, as usual, i was late for my school. Lesson starts 9 and i reach school at 935hr. I decided not to attend lesson since he's going to not mark my attendance if i go late. I sat at kuofu alone trying out my C# project but it didnt bring me anywhere. I saw my ' Classmates' and i decided to move to library. On the way to library, I asked myself ' why do i have a fucked up life in poly? and why when everyone is enjoying themselves in poly and im here-left all alone?' I tot back, if i were to do well for my Os and get into a course of my interest, will i still be left alone like this? I kept tell myself to stay strong and continue my life in the course of study, i keep asking myself to study but i know, i admit-i didn't. What is wrong with me?-

Can someone guide me through this darkness of my life?- I was talking to my JAWS people. I was really amazed that one of them actually tot of settling down already and for the others, they already got the life-to-be in mind. And me?- my future is still so dark and unclear.. I'm really worried about myself.. plain worried are never enough, i know i need to do something even more.. but what?-

alot of people ask me why am i so into scouting? what did scouting actually do to make me so into it. I have no answer until recently i tell myself 'because i feel the sense of belonging in The Fox Scout Group.' Did i have any for NYP? For Traders? NonONO! =(
**
To the personal guardian angel of mine, you seem to be so far from me.. you seem to not guard me anymore like before. Everything seem so different now.. Where are you, guardian angel.? are you sill mine? are you still with me? can i still make a wish?...* this do not refer to anyone, it truly refers to the personal guardian angel of mine. I believe, there is one with everyone...*
**
dechengx-

154th entry. This entry, let me first congratulate the promotion of the the 32,33 adn 34th scouters of The Fox Scout Group. Scouter parry, Scouter Wei quan and Scouter kok yeow. I would also like to take this chance to welcome our new appointed chair and vice chairperson to Elite Seal Venture. Would also like to congrates myself for being the Ops Rover-to-be for ventures.
Yea, my previous entries was about me being ops Rover-to-be in Zhenghua. But this morning, my scouters break the news to me and i agree to it. My stand is, my dream is to serve the group when i can, i don't mind which unit im posted to.. it would be a new challange afterall...
Allright, everything aside. I have a small talk with joanne on msn now. she said"
i see ur fire for scouting burning too profusely, n i really got to wake u up from this" I stop for awhile and read the sentence, at least, 3 times again.. yea! where was i in nyp? what do i really wan for my life? am i managing my own course well? what about my life?... 2 sentence and so many questions for myself.. i seriously need to think this again!.-

Ok. Talk to lynn on msn and found out that niting goona have her bday chalet soon..haha, which bring me to this, I AM GOING TO OPEN A CHALET/BBQ FOR MY 19TH BIRTHDAY ON MAY, IS FREE FOR ALL BUT I AM LOOKING FOR SPONSERS. IF YOU CAN HELP UP ANYWAY, DO LET ME KNOW. CASH, FOOD, TIME...ETC! THANKS!

OK. Since i am here waiting for my brother to finish his bathe, i might as well give an entry. _Ok. E N T R I E S ! !

Today was the first meeting i had with the zhenghua boys, didn't really talk much with the boys but instead talk a little to the PLCs/ Sec 4. Next year PLC Listing is out and yea, waiting for the day to be here. I have nothing to tell the zhenghua, just wish to say, i hope we will enjoy the year 2008 and at the same time move a inch up the level.

Ok. Life is kinda tiring for me not metally but physically. I don't know why either but i hope, i can have more rest and sleep without the need of thinking anything.

Anyway, according to zhaoyi, 2thFEB08 is our las meeting for the Venture. I have mixed feelings.. I don't know if i love to step down or i am not at all looking forward it. The feeling is so different from the last time i step down as a scouts. I don't know why. All i know is, i will miss it for sure...

BOY AND GAL!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! - okok. i know this come very late but i have no choice because i have no time to blog. So readers, Please forgive me =D-

AllRight, Never fail- Wishes and Resolution of the year 2008.(actually i already record it down just that im typing it now.)



Ok. wishes first!
- I wish that my family and i will be healthy and happy.

- I wish that my friends will be healthy and happy.

- I wish that i will not lost my intrest in scouts.

- I wish to smile and laugh non stop!

- I wish that my financal status can be stable.

- I wish that i can celebrate my 19th birthday as crazy and as happy as always.

- I wish for world peace N no more ill-treating of animals.

- Last but not least, I wish for 1 sweet yet simple love. EDITED! No, sorry. I don't need one. =D



Resloution!-

- As my name is up for ZSS OPS, I want to bring ZSS to greater height

- I was to earn as much as possible

- I wan to laugh and smile as much as possible.

- I wan to provide my parents a better life!

- I wan everyone to be happy when with me!

- I wan to lead a better n organised Life

- I wan to have a driving licence.

That all, Not many isnt it?-

Ok. Like i mention in my resloution, my name is up for zss ops Not confirm yet, i guess, but i really hope i can be. 2nd of feb will be my last venture meeting and i know im sure to miss it. all the days we had together, all the time we spend together. Venturing is a part of my life since 2006. Venturing, a two year duration i'll never forget.! -

I had found myself a tutor job now still waiting for job. I hope i will get a job soon so i can earn more!.YAr, i honestly think that i need to work more more more and more =((( lIFE would be much better then!.

Ok. That All=)

hahah! I believe some readers are getting damn bored on my blog with all OUTDATED Entry.- Nah! I'm just saving the good thing to the last.!

OK 151 entries.- If you ever were to read my blog entry stated, 020107, it actually sumarise my whole life for year 2006. I read back and found out that it is really nice to read. I mean, since the year 2007 is coming to an end within the next 6 hours, Why not i do it one more time =)

OK. LEt's start from Jan 2007. Jan 2007 was a NOSCHOOL month. While waiting for the rESULTS of the Big Bad Os, I changed my job from McDonalds to TradersHotel,Singapore. I remembered myself Chiong my way through in order to pay for my bills and all my debts and i wont forget the relieve i had had after clearing all my bills.. This Month was really a diff month as i had to spend it alone...

Month Of Feb.. I believe this is the month that we had our Os level results back.. and i remember myself being so scare while waiting for my own result. I still remember while waiting i see many ppl dropping tears.. Some were so happy about their own result. I can still remember when i saw Mr.Ong, his susprised for me passing My Os. HAha! yes, i pass but results was like *&^%*. But i know, i have to move on.. Straight after my results, i went home as i have no mood to meet anyone at all..

Month Of March.. That was the month that i started my school days in Nyp. I still remember the first day when i went in to schol with joelTan..the lost us, trying to find our way to our class. The main reason why i cannot find my class is, WE DIDNT BRING OUR TIMETABLE. Soon, I met with my new classmates.. They are nice people except that we don't really have much to say, as i am so busy with all my scouts stuff that time OH! ESpecially IT COURSE!!

MOnth Of APRIL, was Basically just another boring life.. Not Much Of a big event Except that we go back together and we became even loving that the past. I still remember the day when i bought her back to my home to show my parent the LONG LOST daughter-in-law(to-Be) My parent was happy for us to get back together....

Month Of May, I had my birthday day celebration with, as usual- 3 days celebrations. 1 day before my birthady, I went out with her to esplande-was suspose to get ourself in the river taxi. but was delay as SOMETHING happen to her.. whaha! ( I know, i wont forget that).. ON the dot of 12 oclock, i remember the first to call me is ALAN and the first to SMS me is Bettina. The First to greet me is of cuz, her!- We went down to sea side of esplande and that where she pass me my present- PSP n a chocolate cake(which she end up finishing up herself for she's hungry).. I must say, i smile non stop at that silly girlfriend of my, then. On the actual day of my celebration, I went out with Hao and ventures to marina for steamboat, Hao bought me a super huge loliipop!!=DD and not forgeting present from yang and dong and accompany from the other ventures.! I also remember that day, 16/may was a school day. So i asked janah to help me with the tabbing of admin card! 17thmay, as per marsita's request, i went back to work and gosh!! they bought me moca feb as my birhtday cake and they even put candle on to it! i WONT FORGET for i drop my tears that day.! Then we had our front office party.OMG! that was the best, i bet! We had fun throughout the night with mars, mel and jackson!!=D . My ex celebrated her birthday on that month as well. But I'm feel so gulity for her clebration, even till today...

Month oF June.. The month was so much of fast. Nothing big really happened.. BUT! Scouts went oversea for our group camp! and i must say, i really truely had fun and it was the most enjoyable time we had!=D

Month of July, One big thing happen.. I declare myself single again and i know that will be the best choice as i couldnt provides any more for her... Month of july is also my exams month which add on to the stress i already had... that time, bring me back to the OS level times i had!

mONTH OF Aus.I spend my national day alone at home watching parade. Halfway the parade, Dong and hao asked me to chill.. was like-.-!!! aus was a fast month as exams had ended and im starting to work non stop AGAIN!!

Month of sept.. The most memorial ones was i went out with my parents for mid month =DD tha day really bind me and my parents up!=D i just love the two of them!!=DDD

Month oF oCt. The biggest thing is !! i lost my laptop for 23 hours!! OMG OMG OMG!!! i was so so so so scare!!!! But luckily joel was with me all the way~!!

Month of Nov- The biggest event is my late uncle death. which bring so many tots to me!

And now to month of dec! ahahah! u can see that i arlready lost my heart in blogging! so til now!! tml! is a new day, a new year!! i wish everyone a happpy n prosper new yeaRR! tml i will blog ll my wishesss!!

d3ch3ngx

150th POST!. AND yea! I finished the dinner and such. Im a free man already But i don't really like it.. cuz i know, im miss it!-

Ok. The blog that gave me the inspiration to blog about is Scouter Xiang hao's blog. - Some feels and thoughts of the dinner. I never know that planning for a dinner is so much of a problem until the day when shidi call me up to be part of the committee. I didn't agree but i know, today, I didnt regret making the decision. This dinner made me realise that, it is not easy to get a event done up. We met with alot of challanges along the way during the planning. Budgets, programes,suitable time for meeting, rejections and outsiders' disagreement.. but all didnt bring our commitee down but it make us even stronger.

We had late meeting till 5am. We had stupid math caculations which consist- 5 brains, 5 caculator, 5 pens, 5 paper but only ONE question... We had 160 tickets to do manually number stamp and manually paper folding... We had ideas from zero to many on how to do the guest book.. we had disagreements but we didnt give up.. afterall, what is planning without problems.

One part to reply to xiang hao, Patrick was not the only one that i respect in the group so do you, zhao yi, ms yeo, scouter toh,scouter john, ...etc.. Scouter patrick was the one who approached me during group camp one fine year telling me he was scouter John's AVSL ( or something. Dun really remember) and told me stories about how he and scouter john was in the past. At that time, he earned my respects with his story. what really convince me was the most successful and joy and fun cf we had had!!!. Oh ya! which really brings me. I wanted so much to ask scouter Toh up on stage last night but was restricted by the time constrain! =(

Oh yar, thanks to xh also. Reminds me of the naughty scouts that i used to be. Naughty + cheeky. The Fox Scout group- The group that made me a better me. =) cheers.

LOng entry! But i want again to thanks shidi, fuming, bingquan, nigel, liting, chenghao and the djs for the making the event a successful one!! thank you!! hope to work with u guys agaiN!!!! =DD

dechengx-

149th posting.._ OMG OMG OMG!! GRAND DINNER IS COMING REAL REAL SOON AND I AM LIKE SO SO EXCITED FOR THISS!!!! PLEASE GOD, MAKE THE DAY COME FASTER AND HOLD IT THERE!! =DD

OK... Im back to normal with normal posting and all my wahahah!! Smile it will make ur day ~ NAh!. Im working in the morning tml.. and i can tell, everytime when i work in the morning, i feel like quiting!! arghh!!! don't wish to comment more. But i wan to say, u changed alot.. since the first day i meet you to the today.. you changed.. if u think u can do so much better than me then say right to my face.. i can jolly well give in and returns everything!!WTH!!.

Nah,that for work.. and yes! my school holiday begins today!! And i am so busy with work and scoutss!! but im more to be busy for scout :/ LOL!!

OK. that all =DD
D3ch3ngx.

148th entry. For this entry. I'm going to say something very emotional... i know it don't usually come out from my mind but come to think of it, which human being actually don't thought of that.? So, here it goes..

I hate my life.. i hate the way i spend my life.. i wanna leave the place but i couldn't. Responsiblity were there and many many factors that pull me back.. And why am i living in such a misery.? A moment of sweetness, a moment of loves... but everything end up to be nothing... i am still stucked at square 1.
Exams Exams Examsss How long do i need to get rid of everything!! I hate working part time.. i hate going to school and then to work... how i wish i can finish this course and get my cert and F**K off the school...

I miss scouting.. i miss camps.. i miss first aid duty throughout the nights.. i miss those time when i'm as dirty as a wild animals.. i miss those grass patch that i slept on, those tents that i sleep in.. i miss those moments when i tell myself- i belongs to The FoxScout Grp.! How much time have i spend in scouting... i miss them all.. I look at alot of my seniors.. how many actually lasted their passion of scouting till today... everyone left.. one by one... how i wish time stops everytime when im enjoying it...
Beside scouting, i know i miss u... those time we had together.. those laughter and jokes we used to have.. the friendship we used to hold.. but everything seem to come to a stop ever since the movie... is that really a wrong step to take or are we fated to be like this..
And beside all this, i know i miss being in love.. i know it is freak pathetic for me to post this out.. but who don't...Sometime i tot back, why would i have a failed relationship when i already know so much of a person?.. I came to know that recently.. Yes, i may know the inside-out of the person.. but how much am i willing to give in and how much more do she needs.... Relationship is something i missed but something i am so afraid of... like what i told Joel, Commitment may be vital for a relationship.. but financial wise is something no less important.... It makes one feel so useless when u cannot at all provides even more for the one u love...

I feeling lousy.. i feeling bad.. but i know, i still need to be in the life i am in now.. I finding ways to get rid of all the troubles... But i got one big question.. who will spend this xmas eve with me... and who will be there to fullfill my wish... santa claus, can i have a present for this christmas?- a kiss.... Many thanks...

d3ch3ngx-

147th entry!!
Ok. First Thing First. IM SORRY, MELLISA CHAN HUI LING!!!

Ok.and as promised,
Our nyssa turns 15th on,09/12. Happy birthday to u, nyssa. im so sorry, the last entry my mind was all on that paper,1008.. ok. Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to nyssaa.. happy birthday to u!! =DD

NOW, I wan to tell all my readers. Dear Readers, I GETTING BUSY OVER THIS FEW WEEKS!! i will be coming online real less and will mostly at nights. Cuz my holiday is starting real soon and this friday will be my last paper! happy yea!! and as usual, im going to work and work and work!!!=D should u cannot contact me via my hp, call 68314280 and look for JASON=D

Anyway, grand dinner is coming real soon and yes, im getting more and more excited!! =DD Yea, im sure with all the efforts we putted in, the dinner will be a real success!! =D SmileS!!!
and the day after grand dinner will the yearly voting for ventures... let's see, who's in and who's out!=D

OH!=D to siew hui, meiting and jer.. thanks for your wishes!! im sure i will do slightly better than the last semes! =D whahah!=DD

that all!=DD

hahah! I always believe that an different way in bloggin spice up this blog so... Im going to try to blog in CHINESE. HAHA!

很快的，我就要出门了。今天是我的考试. OMG!! i cannot stand it. It just sucks and i really canniot think of any other words to add in. Trust me, i spend more than 15 mins on the 3 sentence!! argh!!-
Ok. translate! 15 more mins, i will be out from this house and get my butt to NYP lecture theater for my exams.EG 1008- Maths. Like OMG can! i just suck at maths (too!). but i just have to make it there and take this freak paper and pass it! I know i already tried my best in studying last night, at least. As for now till 2pm i want to have a good rest and pleasent journey all the way to YCK. -
BTW. i have so much thing left pending and mostly are scouts. :/ Grand dinner is coming real soon and we really need to get settle down and do all the rehease and such.. The banner design was rejected( some how) and i need to produce another one by tonight. And not forgetting the presentation that need to put in all the 19 gb (!!) of photos that boss sent me. We ( the committee) have had put our extream effort in making the event possible and hopfully, a success! We just hope everything turns out fine!!!

Oh yar, Scouts again!! As per zy, we need to ask all the new freshmen to confirm their decision on joinng ventures and also we are havin our yearly exco votting the day after grand dinner!!! argh!! i'm like so exxcited to see who is our new sitting bull! nevertheless, in me, i already know who to vote! =DD
OK! time are running out! Im leaving already!! Man! Wish me luck in my 1008 =DDD!!!

d3ch3ngxx!

145th Entry Posting.

Im so sorry for not blogging for such a long time... I so lazy to do it plus im busying out with group dinner. But, I never forget my other friends. I even MAKE A EFFORT to cancelled everything just for this lynn ang for a large scale production.

Ok. That is the one. The story is acutally a love story but was perform in a dance type. My friend, Lynn Ang was the girl lead. (the real reason, she ask me to go.) It was held at RP. I must say, it is a very well done production. Lighting effects, sound... etc.. Very well done! Good job, lynn. And i must say, that is the first production that i went and i truly understand the whole story without reading the book. Im impressed. =D But im gulity, i didnt get anything for her. LYNN, that my promise, your next production, it will be different ! =DD Touched yea!

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Ok. Like i mentioned. I've busying out with all my grand dinner things. and there are so many to do and so many to design... Some joke from this stupid OIC, sunny Zoro. HE ask me to do a chart on our committee memeberss. when i ask him how, he send me this:
OMG!! i was like pointing middle finger to my laptop when i see that!! JOKE Eh!?

Ok. that all for blogging!!=DD! i hope the grand dinner will be a good job done!!!! arghh!! and and and!!!!! i hope for this aunty of mine to get well soon =DD and i hope for my examss to end soONNN!! arghh!!

MUACKS TO ALL!! =D

OK! This is for MS YVONNE XU MIN YI! =)) WHO TURNS 16TH ON THE 26/11.
as ususal: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YVONNE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!-- =))

MY VERY BEST WISHES FOR THIS BIRTHDAY GAL. GAL, YOU ARE FOREVER SWEET 16, NO WORRIES.. PLEASE GET YOURSELF A BOYFRIEND SOON AND GET MARRIED!! =)) AWAITING FOR XIAO YVONNE'S ARRIVIAL. =)) ALL THE BEST IN YOUR SCHOOL WORK AND ALL YOUR WISHES!!! JIAYOU IN YOUR LIFEE!! AND I NEVER FORGET THIS USED-TO-BE GODSIS OF MINE! YOUR PRESENTS ARE STILL PENDING IN MY MIND =))

LASTLY, STAY HEALTHY AND PRETTTY =))) CHEERSS!!

DECHENG @NLINE

OK. over this few months of taking MRT to school, I asked myself this question.

" why do railway track have rocks?" - I believe everyone ask themself that before but was too lazy to find out. !!! SO !! i found this site and i get to know more about it.. It's intresting =)

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Track_ballast

And the rocks are not call rocks but ballast. INtresting hur~
Ok. THis is a random post =) enjoy and good nights babiess! =_

142th entry
Imgaine this... you were walking home while is is raining cats and dogs. Feeling cold, You put on a jacket and move on... just right in front, you saw this little kitten in hiding behind a wall, hoping that the hard wall will give it some warm... it look at you and gave u weak "meow" What will u do?...
You see, i have so much to blog yet i have so much to hide. Dean was right. Im, afterall, a human. IF even a kitten needs love, why wouldn't I?....

it look like, i still do not put 100% trust in blogging my personal problem here.......

141th entry. I know im missing alot alot of entriess, im so sorryy! =))

Anyway, i have updated my sites with new music and also new style on LinkItUp. Ok and i just receive two warning letter from the freak nyp. I just hate going to school nowaday. I hope i can work more cuz i need $$ =((

Okie. Nowaday, im like so busy over lots of scout event. My school? I'm really so envy that my friends have so much project to do, yet i can only sit down and LISTEN TO CLASS!!! WTH!! I tok with my best friend for a while this morning. Know he isnt feeling any better as me. I'm like him, i feel like dropping out of poly. I just studying in here. =( but i know i have to, no matter what...

Scouts, dinner are rushing.. and we have got alot alot more to do.. i just hope the dinner turns out fine!! it better be.
erm. what else can i update u guys with?..
I suspose that all =)) cheerrsss =)) LOVES!.

I WISH THAT GOD PAINT YOUR DAY WITH COLOURS TODAY.

D3CH3NGX @NLINE

139th entry. Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEL CHAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! =)) OMG, Mel Chan is official 2 years old from 19/11 Onwards =) Gave her a birthday celebration in service center that day, Just hope she loves it =))

And also...
祝你生日快乐，祝你生日快乐，祝你生日快乐儿。。。 祝你生日快乐!!. This song is specially delicated to Xu Dong Mei, Who is official 18th on the 20/11. wahah!. I wish her a happy happy birthday. Wish that she will find her very own happiness and also her love soon =)) Dong Mei, HAppy Birthday!! =))

Anyway...
Very long since i last blogged. And Right now, I just couldnt make myself to sleep. I dunnoe why. Im here to say,OMG, i've skipping class and lesson and all that i know i should stop :/ I keep telling myself to wake up early and go to school but (!!) i can't do it =((( School suckss~.

At Work...
my work place is getting more and more boring. All my ex-club had left me and im left alone with the new batch alone =( But my personal uniform have just arrived and i tell, Damn, it is really custom make everything seem so perfectly done ;/

At scouts..
Scouts was more relaxed as meeting was cancelled again and again due to unforseen eventsss. The last event i went was this campfire at a primary School. I just wan to say something about this leader whom i met at the campfire. Just because u r a VSL of the other venture unit doesn't give u the right to say something unpleasant about our group, our unit.

Tata! someone is chasing me to sleep =((

Ok. done with all updates.! stay happy and my blog =) and something to share =)) enjoy =)

138TH entry.-

Before i start, i wan to super apologize to YANI for the wrong TCA date =( Im so stupid to make a stupid mistake.

Anyway, i just wan to say, i miss going oversea very much! I miss taking long trip to oversea and enjoy ourself there!!! I miss checking into hotel. I miss sleeping in hotel roomss!! Yea, i'm not sick of hotel! Im just getting envy with my guest!!! =/

Ok. It is again another week of school tmr. A whole new week and IM going to install c# onto my computer before it is too late! argh!.. FRESHMAN FIRST MEETING reaching!! i think im goign to have headache soon!!! Group dinner im attached to gss. Yea, Im having another big challange!! And i need to update the site as well!! arghh!! AND NOT FORGGETNG MY NYP PROJECTTSS!!!!

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=)) before i start my entry this time, i wan to say, THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR UR CARE AND CONCERN!!! =))) im fine already...=)
Finally, After so many days, i ready to sit down at my computer desk and do a proper blogging-an proper updates of my life to all my readers.
what i can say is, my life been very busy with work and school but it adds on to my busy-ness with the sudden death of my late uncle. I would very much like to talk abit more about this uncle but i decided not, since there are something i shouldnt reveal to the public.. but i already told it to two of my very best friend, joel and alan.. oooo =))

Anyway, I went to school on moday and skipped the last lecture as i need to rush to my uncle wakes for some chanting and stuff. Tuesday was the last day of the wake, so i skipped the whole day and went for that... Wednesday, i went to school as usual.. But i know im freak tired!!.. i couldnt stop yawnking!!! After school, i call hotel and found out that my best bud, mel is working so i thought it will be nice to have her to work with me so i went down to work...

.. Life is so unpreditable... we dunnoe when the person beside us will leave us anytime. When the time is there, he or she will only be left with dust.. by that time, you will think back with alot of WHY & IF... One day, when i leave this world, who will be there for me doing all my wakes and stuff.And who will stand one side and look? Many says, treasure the one u have before u regret... but wouldnt it be more painful when the one who u treasured the most leave u... If it is... then what should we do to make the ending more beautiful.? LIFE- A unpreditable story. write every pages with a colourful pen...

D3ch3ngx'

136th entry. before i start this entry would like to request my readers to do a "moment of slience" for the death of my uncle.











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Thanks.. Life is indeed unpredictable. I dunnoe if my parents mind if i put this matter online but i think, it is a very good lesson for all of us. My uncle who i mention in my previous entry just passed away on saturday, early morning.



I was woken up by my mother telling me that her brother was in danger status. I woke up, bath and rushed down with her to the hosipital.



Upon reaching, the doc apporach us and told us, CPR failed- he is gone. At the momnet i asked myself, Why is this happen to me?

thing happened so fast and now is alr the second day of the wake. So many thing have happened. Looking at my grandma's crying hard. my mum tears, all my uantie's watery eyes and all the sad speach. I really learn that life is so unpredictable. Anything can happen anytime, anywhere....



my uncle had even make his own plan on what to do after his operation and where to go. he even told my mum not visit him as he will be out soon after the operation. But no one ever know, that is his last toks with my mum....



sigh.. im sad.. just hope he will rest in peace....



tages reply

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to KUKU, who u? call me call me...

to JAY, OK! NOTED! TYPO!!! =)
to CHEE XIN, reply via sms already. Sorry for not replying ur sms. When i receive ur sms, shortly, i get to know the big bad news.. soo.. im sorry =)

to SHAN, Who say. is u forget me!!! never call me somemore.!!

to HUI FANG, hey!! yea yea! u'll see me soon in venture freshman 1st meeting

to NYSS, eh.. no gf leii.. single =)) yeayea.. i miss u too -))

to Siew HUI, dun tell u!!!! LOL!! next time i show u!! bEST NYP BUD!~

to MEL, heee.. i knoww!! cuz im there =x=x



that all =) god bless. and treasur

something unpleasant happened in our family. Not really our family but one of my parent's sliblings. He was admited to hosipital not long ago for a operation. During the operation, his heart stop for 45 mins. Now, he is still in coma state...



We really need a mircale now. something to happen to spike him up.Nothing should happen to him... Now, we cannot do anything but sit back and watch him this way... nevertheless, praying for him is the best alternative....



This week, unlike last week, was a rather 'thinking' week for me. Seeing my uncle in this state i asked myself.. why is life so unpredictable?
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The above was a entry i make earlier. i stopped half way. cuz, i asked myself not to think any more. but......

I was asked to reply to tages by siewhui. So while i still got 30 more mins to my next class, Why not just give an entry to updates my life with my dear readers.=) Firstly, i wan to say that, My internet connection is back to usual and i am able to use my internet at home already! but i will still lodge a official report to Singtel with regards to this. Utherly disappointed with the service by them =

I went for my night hike on last saturday. It was a tiring night but i had lots of joy with my partner,harlod. I get to know more about him and also learnt alot from him too. Especially on CHIONG EXPRESSWAY!-- whoooo =D Sunday, I give my work a miss because i was too tired already.

Monday was rather early start day for me. As usual, i was late for my school. Nothing much, but i went home early. Cuz i was too tired alreadyy :/ Tuesady n Wedn, Nothing much. Except i really enjoy working with MEL. Yes! as usual. DIRTY DIRTY JOOKEESSS..

I really want to thanks mel for all the fun and joy she had given me during work. Honestly, workign can be boring without her.!!!!--

tag replyyy..arghh! i gtg!! i promise!! tonignt!!!!=xx